First taste

I kneel to the side, watching you. You have her bound tight in restraints but its your words twisting her mind into knots, in ways that are becoming familiar to me. I see her pour herself into the palm of your hand. Willing and eager to do anything to please you. I am lost in the sounds and sights of her submission to you. Mesmerized I see her lips wrap around you and I am momentarily startled by the thought that this is the first time I have seen your cock. I am here kneeling, everything in me aching to give myself to you and I have reached this point without every seeing your cock. Your Dominance over me has sunk into the depths of me in ways I have never felt before, in ways I could not have even imagined a short time ago. I cannot look away, vaguely wondering why I am not bothered by any of this, instead I feel the thrill of watching you take your pleasure. You stand before me and tell me to clean you. Eyes wide open and looking up at you, humbled to my core, I gratefully lap my tongue over your balls and shaft, my first touch, my first taste of you.

A treasured memory from early days

Bliss

my hands bound
over my head
limbs stretched
my eyes following
the belt in your hand
naked, raw in need
lusting for the feeling
of submitting
to the stinging, burning pain
the strikes rain down
faster than I can thank you
fires building in my body
ignited by the blows
the heat throbbing
overwhelming me
fingers digging deep
into sore flesh
then, piercing through the haze
I feel you enter me
claiming me completely
the pleasure shattering the pain
until everything you've built up
inside of me erupts
and I'm screaming
shaking and sobbing
in the most
powerful
exquisite
blissful
release
of
pleasure
emotion
desire
need
love

In my heart I am this girl

In my heart I am this girl
trailing after you
able to completely 
give myself
everything
everything inside of me
without fear
without hesitation


Nothing mattering more
than to be at your feet


As much as I yearn
I am not this girl
I stumble
I lash out
I fail
over and over
always getting in
my own way


but know in my heart
I only want to be this girl
and give you all
of me

Initiation

I am there in front of everyone
the room dark, except for the flames
of the fire mesmerizing me
as I try to push through the fear
and will myself to step forward 
towards Him


I am there of my own choice
Every step I have made deliberately,
with careful thought
I sought this out, to surrender
to put myself in the hands of the Masters


I'm stripped bare
completely exposed
my body, my reactions, my feelings
every shield I have I have removed
my clothes, my words, my will
there is no place to hide


I am not brave
I offer no resistance
I break down quickly
under the whip
I obey meekly
dissolving into tears


As I'm given to the Masters
overwhelmed, in a blur
unlike anything I have
experienced before
there is a moment when I think its more
than I can bear
where I am ready to scream for them to stop


but I don't
because I chose this.. to see
what I was capable of
what would happen
when I walked through the door
that I've always been afraid to open


So in this room dark, except for the flames
I surrender to all

Your Valentine

Thank you
For allowing me to give you
all my love
For taking all the submission
 I have to offer
My gratitude is endless
I want nothing more
than you be Yours